Wednesday, March 11, 2009 @ 4:52 PM

Screwed

GPA was crap, dont know how my parents are gna react. Our highest only got as far as 3.4, & w/ around threequaters below 3.0 :O Comparing to other classes (3C WTF) , this sucks (to the max). ;/ Plz dont ask me for my GPA anymore cuz my mood can turn 360degrees afterwards. Screwed; Is there sth wrong w/ the teachers or do we plain suck, how is it possible our class average is the lowest in other classes. 1st time i ve ever failed any subject in my overall (fuck chemistry) & stop giving me the crap about how " ITS NORMAL TO FAIL. Ive failed before." Gwrah anyway it just term1; i just gotta work alot harder next term :D
I M SO DEPRESSED! :X

Went home w/ Huiying & lol what she said made alot of sense. :D
PI, maths 500w reflection, bio 500w read& write assignment, chem assignment, maths wksht 10, physics assigmentt, LA handout, Physics ASK. All by friday what the heck.

This year sucks to the core.
I miss having just one single person who'd actually b there & shares the same interest. I m not targeting anyone but ... shit , what the heck!
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Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
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I dont have fun anymore. Is it just me or am i turning stupider. To add on, my brother's in camp damn it. No more people at home to stick up for me/ tell me bedtime jokes and shadow stories so I'll at least smile before i sleep.

Dont worry, i m not cutting myself yet. There is actually someone to live for :D
Time helps. It might get better very soon, like a V shape :D I thought I ended up in the wrong class @ the beginning of sec1 too. See how it turned out; perfect :D

But what if it doesnt ? What if things were like that the whole year round. What if everthing did turn out wrong as I had expected. What if I kept failing and failing and failing. What if !!!

At least something did turn out right in the end....
lalala :D